Well I love you life. Sometimes… you’re just unbelievable.
It’s been a series of unfortunate events. There’s a few flies in the ointment. A few…wrenches in my gears.
Things around here are just… well this weekend started with a major misunderstanding. It was something small that escalated, and while there was a result, I’m not really quite happy with it. I think what happened was both…
It wasn’t a shining moment for me.
About a week ago, the first domino fell. My phone has been giving me issues and since will not properly sync with my computer to take my contacts off. Therefore if you have called/texted me and have gotten a “who are you?” Fret not. I do not have amnesia… but my phone does.
It started some thinking for me… do I just manually enter the people I care about’s phone numbers or do I just do the factory reset and lose all of my texts off of my phone entirely?
Now for those of you that have been reading my personal twitter account, you may have noticed some strange texts over the past few days. This is me going through my “notes” of the year or so lifespan this version of my phone has.
You can see quite a bit of your life… in those digital transmissions. I have seen the course of friendships and… people that I care about drift into my life and disappear into the sunset.
Text messages and notes in my drafts like these:
“Don’t overthink things. Trust your instincts. Jump right in.” — SDCC 2009
“Don’t ever assume that you can’t do anything.”— SDCC 2009
to
“Sometimes the real heroes are the ones you encounter… by “accident.””
to ones from…
“I want a blend of simple, fiery, easy going, passionate, madness, comfort and adventure… unattainable.”
“We all want the unattainable.”
There are some things on my cell phone that… well…
“Love is a many splendored yet mind boggling thing.”
I’m not even saying this is remotely near what it is, what it was, or what it could be. I am not thinking about that. I’m just having a good time. I wanted to continue to have a good time with…
“Soon, the time will be right… soon.”
Here’s hoping it is.
I’m not ready to erase- you- just yet.
The misunderstanding that transpired happened for a few reasons. But most of all, it happened because, despite knowing in my mind exactly what to do, I had a moment (few moments) of blatant stupidity.
It lead me to a point of introspection. I reflected on my actions from outside of the box. I was not happy with all of my choices. I knew how much that I have evolved and well, it sounded like I was leaving the wrong impression on this instance.
I knew know better.
I continued on like every other thing. I had to move forward, even if it was a bit of a setback. In a way, little had changed with…
but in the ways that it had, well…
I was making a video yesterday afternoon and then technology fubar #2 occurred. This time, it was my camcorder. Gotta love it. To make matters worse, it was somewhat involving something pretty important to me.
The camcorder completely froze and would not shut off. I wasn’t sure if it was going to be completely broken let alone if I was going to be able to recover the video recorded previously to the camera.
I wrote an update on Facebook freaking out.
The text, the misunderstanding… and then…
I wondered if it was a sign. I’m still not sure.
Looking through and reflecting… purging and making way for the future.
I plugged my camcorder into the USB. I hoped and wished that it would work. I didn’t want the setback of the equipment. I was prepared for the worst. I think that’s how a person should always approach life.
I am happy to say that my camera is miraculously working now. The video in question (along with the others) were recovered. And while I won’t be posting it here, know that it is…
I know that it will be alright. I just… wish…
“Soon, the time will be right… soon.”
Here’s hoping it is.
I’m not ready to erase you just yet.
—-End Transmission—-
I am an Enigma 