I didn’t finish everything on the list yesterday.. but damn I still got a lot done. Sleep, did make a cameo after all. Postponed after what 4 juicers, I was due.
Last night’s slumber felt amazing. It would have been even more so had I gotten the apartment cleaned like I would have liked. I just pushed over some things and made a corner of bed to lay down and sink into. I went to bed EARLY for me. I ignored im’s and my phone. I took time to just really relax.
Today I feel refreshed. I’m thinking about taking a swim, running the errands I didn’t finish yesterday, and possibly cleaning. It’s a day of spring cleaning.. a day of catch up. A day of putting the feet up finally.
I woke up to my roommate coming home. I was dreading it. So far it’s been fine though. She was so relieved to be home after her trip. She was mellow and cheerful. I suddenly felt bad about being such an asshole with things not being done around the house. We talked about her trip and things and smoked a couple of cigarrettes. Maybe things will be better. I really hope so.
Putting some cash into savings felt good. Now I just have to forget its there. Actually, scratch that, it doesn’t exist. All that I have is the few dollars in my wallet this moment, and they needn’t be spent on anything that is not detrimental to life functioning… some sacrifices must be made in order to have amass debauchery and goodness later.
I’m going to look for some things to change the template here a bit and revamp. If anyone knows of anywhere that has some good ones, please let me know. Eventually I want to redirect and get things setup for my own sites and all of that. I own the domains, I have ideas already.. I just need to get a few more ducks in a row to get them all up and running.
Routine is a welcome thing.. not working again today feels odd. My boss for job 1 said that she may need me later today, but isn’t sure. I hope that she does.
Time has become even more valuable. Everything is an investment. And my time is best used in those commodities.. weather they are journeys in the quest for knowledge, identity, art, love, lust, pleasure, sadism, masochism, frolic and fancy free, journalistic, documentary, etcetera.. they all serve the same purpose in the end. I want to maximize the output from the machine. I want more for myself than yesterday, everyday. The seasons are changing. It’s that time of year again. I am the final product. And its crunch time in overtime.