Once upon a time you loved me
but never gave me what i really wanted from you but in pieces
and it made me fall to pieces
because each day you told me no, i took it as a hint.
that you didnt want me.
that you didnt want this
i saw the silver linining.
cut through exteriors of a home
it didnt have to be in the best area
i cared not the details
except that you were there
and so was lolita.
i doubt you would even care.
that all this feeling..
well why would he even care
this isnt what he wants.
im not what he wants.
so why make him stay?
and then the day came.
i broke into a million pieces
for a moment i felt colorful & ___
but then i came through it
and remembered just how small i was.
how small i always would be.
i’m going to the ocean at lunch today.
somehow i doubt that its going to help with the pain.
two broken souls but naught a love that would want to mend it… you.
and my heart beckons and breaks.
my hand reaches for you to grab
and i fall back
into the abyss
because youre not there to catch me
for the first time.
for the last time.
for one more try.