The brightly colored large tacks that hold up my French prints have been falling off mysteriously. I’m not sure as to why exactly. They’ve been on the walls months. It’s only been starting recently.
Perhaps gravity is setting in and the weight is pulling on them.
Perhaps it’s something else entirely.
But when another tack and picture fell he instinctively went to fix it.
My room is still in shambles from the Holiday activities. You didn’t think that just because I’ve been off the radar meant I’d become a nun did you?
It had been a romantic evening. Dinner and then a moonlit walk on the pier. It hadn’t been completely perfect, but it was damn near that way.
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking. After everything with Mr Parker.. of saying my goodbyes and throwing pennies to the air on New Years.
Sometimes it’s.. not the greatest experience for my lovers, specifically for him.
We were about to lay in bed. We looked up. He noticed the line print fall. It was the second one to fall this week. He went to fix it. I told him not to worry about it. He was trying to be a gentleman.
He fished around the clothes near the side of the bed looking for the brightly colored tack. He didn’t find it.
He found something else.
And there was a moment of silence as he picked it up off the floor and looked up at me.
“I always get up afterwards and go to the bathroom.”
I couln’t breathe. For a moment there, despite my honesty, I was worried that I’d blown it.
“It’s probably from one of our multiple sessions. I’m sure it’s nothing. Don’t worry about it.”
He went to the bathroom and threw it away. The silence was deafening. I hung my head a little lower.
Please don’t tell me I ruined it. Please don’t tell me I ruined it. Please don’t tell me..
I did didn’t I? God damnit.
To be continued…