Just by being

Just by being

I glow
Because of me

But then you come into the picture…
And make me more.

fade

everywhere i look..

there you are.

why

why

why

do you haunt me so..

if you don’t want to be with me.

love is illogical

there can be no other explanation.

Illegible.

Did I ever tell you that I write notes everywhere?

In between the spaces.

So mundane that like time, so many people forget.

But therein lies a secret

That

They

Fail

To

See.

Forever encased

In awe and wonder

Evermore for its simple complexity.

+++

8.7

Just now

ill use your words to uplift you.
to bait you.
to entranze you.
to mate you..
to make you want to hate you…
etcetera etcetera.

so–
be careful the words that escape you.

they shall be your crux of fate.

**

choose wisely.

9.7

…Itch…

and then i looked before jumping into that abyss and realized it was going to be alright.. because it was all an illusion and it was really just you. and i just closed my eyes and clicked my heels.. and wished that you never left.

Beguin

im ready to say it finally…
thank you.
thank you.
thank you.

i can finally rest easy.
it wasn’t me.
it really wasn’t.
and maybe it wasn’t you either.
maybe..
maybe..

does any of that matter?
its just details.
no point in putting blame where none is necessary anywhere.

goodbye.
wow.
i didn’t think id ever be able to close that book as snugly.
finally.
finally.
-fin-

***

originally written about my first love, but aptly suited for the current standings.  No not about the grip, btw

Near Miss

Sometimes i wish i could throw away emotion and just let the animal take over.
It never works for very long.

So i sit in silent slumber… wait for someone who can take my breath away in more than just that carnal way…
the one who’s going to make my toes curl with just mere words.

and he says “someday you’ll find him I’m sure.”

—

4.18.7

dedication

And yet we press on…

fleeting moments dropped like petals by the wayside

revel and astound

forgiven but not forgotten

How did we come to this precipice?

I don’t know..

and more so..

I don’t care anymore.

I kick my feet along the waves of the ocean shore and smile back while my lover tugs my hand a little.

In the moonlight

In the wakes of dreams and passions

Nothing matters

Not even an invisible man

Pan the screen to the stars above

of twinkling specs of destiny and demise

Back to the girl with a glint in her eyes

of dancing in a beautiful long flowing dress and soft sweet endearing kisses

You are but a memory..

fading fading into the realm of nonexistent, but once existent .

Darling dear…

now weary and shaken

And they threw down the years like bricks off a skyscraper made of paper giants

a little skip to the offstep two step twirl twirl twirl

He asked me to sing to him and I wanted to croon at just the thought

All is not lost

even in tangled arms

and so it goes

time- tossed overboard

today I’ll write your name in the sand and watch it disappear

Because

In the wakes of dreams and passions

Nothing matters

Not even an invisible man

You are but a memory..

fading fading into the realm of nonexistent, but once existent.

Re: Summertime bliss / agony…

summer in San Diego…
oh how do i miss thee.

this year?
this year?

maybe the fall.
i hope.
i hope.