Walking on sunshine and eggshells

I got a call from my brother yesterday.  My grandmother needs a second operation.  They had to put a stint in her heart and now have to do another bypass surgery.
“She’s going to be ok.  I just found out.  Dad called me and told me to get over here.”
I really feel like I should be [...]

Project Reorganization:The Balancing Act, episode 1

Once upon a time
In a galaxy.. not so far away…
(Hell I oftentimes feel like Los Angeles is another galaxy after living in San Diego, so give me a break!)
There once was a girl who
Was a bit of a socialite.
Perhaps too much.
And while the parties were grand and the people wonderful… for some reason, it just [...]

Portrait.

Well I survived suburbia again.  This time, there wasn’t a speck of drama (for me at least.)  It was a breath of fresh air.
The formalities.  All of Los Angeles should rejoice knowing that I got a GPS.  I also got a violin, some makeup, a scarf, and a couple of items of clothes.  It wasn’t [...]

Dear Family

I know that you’ve been in line hours fighting the crowds for those shiny shiny Black Friday specials, but for me, you’re wasting your time.
You’ve sent me letters asking me what exactly I want for Christmas.  I’ll tell you forget all that consumer crap.
What I want this holiday, and everyday are just a few “simple” [...]

Because of his disdain

Eight months have passed since I’ve seen them last.  This is a pattern.  A horrific unchanging sequence.
It’s been almost 3 years.  The ‘09 looms carefully creeping up slow. slow. slow. faster faster faster faster.
He wants to forget me.  And I struggle for some sort of acknowledgment that I exist.  He’s kept me from them.  He’s [...]

Today is your day.

Dear Maddox,
Happy 4th Birthday my baby boy.
I am very sorry that I was not able to see you today.  Know that I would have liked to more than anything in the world, but unfortunately..
Mommy is trying so hard right now to make things better.  For that time someday where we will be together again. It’s [...]

Bonding with video games

I hadn’t been able to see him in nearly a month.  It had been beginning to depress me.  Just a few miles felt so far away when I was without the truck.  Now, there just didn’t seem enough hours in the day to get out there even if I’d wanted to.
He’s in a good place [...]