its only taken 3 years

My marriage was over 3 years ago, but the axe finally comes down officially tomorrow.
3 years of heartache of separation from the kids.
Of bullshit games and an inferior complex from a man who abused me both emotionally and physically.
From a man who attempted to extinguish the fire within me.
I look back at pictures in reflection.  [...]

sail away sail away.. another day

 

holding on for another weekend

 
 
This is where I could be.
A friend of mine invited me to go sailing last weekend and this weekend.
I’ve never been sailing.
It’s on the list of things I’ve always wanted to do but never had the opportunity to.
I count myself fortunate to even have the option of doing something like [...]

Zoned.

“Friends last longer”
yeah…
awesome.
Not this one.

The more you know

We are not allowed to discuss 3 things in my fathers house:
Religion
homosexuality
and politics.
Go figure I happen to frequently talk about all 3 on a regular basis.
My dad has strong convictions in his beliefs.  I am always open to a discussion regardless of preference.
I think that it’s not important, but is a healthy exercise to do [...]

Dear psycholady from the UK

Dear psycholady from the UK,
I used to date your boyfriend years ago and we have remained friends.
He used to live in San Diego.
He asked me to go when he left.
For my own personal reasons, I didn’t.
It was hard on both of us when he got on that plane.  He was the best friend I had [...]

happenstance

First guy I met worth my time in LA.. who lives in SF.
(I have all the luck sometimes)
and I randomly ran into him after my martial arts class in a little artsy/hip hop indie clothing shop by Big Robot.
He was with a gorgeous brunette girl friend of his.
“Oh hey I know you.” I said as [...]

Douchebag of the week: Username Wig lady

I was walking back from S & W with my friend Jimmy and a random stranger stopped me and interrupted my conversation.  This in itself is not that douche-y.  I will admit I’ve done this a few times, albeit rare.
But what she stopped me to ask me was a bit rude for someone that I’d [...]

December 10th, 2006

The day after.
I was reminded of this in a conversation before work.
December 9th, 2006:
I knew my marriage was over before then.
But never in a million years did I believe I could have married a monster.
Everytime I enter into anything serious, it’s in the back of my mind.
I feel as if I were a toxin.
I bring [...]

chasing stars

He only comes out once a month.  The brightest star graces the sky.  But only for one midnight.  He is dangerous.  Cancerous.
With bright blue eyes and a past.  He walks with heavy steps and tries to hide it.
It’s obvious.  But she doesn’t care.
You are the memory I never want to
die
fade
disappear
It’s midnight a month later.  A [...]

All I need

“A man in the desert still searches for water.”
Wise words from a friend of mine when telling him a bit of the back story.
A story not to grace these pages today.
I know what I want.  It’s a very specific catch.
Very very specific.
Why does a man in  the desert still quest for water?
Simple.
Only when you’re stripped [...]