Dear Family

I know that you’ve been in line hours fighting the crowds for those shiny shiny Black Friday specials, but for me, you’re wasting your time.
You’ve sent me letters asking me what exactly I want for Christmas.  I’ll tell you forget all that consumer crap.
What I want this holiday, and everyday are just a few “simple” [...]

Because of his disdain

Eight months have passed since I’ve seen them last.  This is a pattern.  A horrific unchanging sequence.
It’s been almost 3 years.  The ‘09 looms carefully creeping up slow. slow. slow. faster faster faster faster.
He wants to forget me.  And I struggle for some sort of acknowledgment that I exist.  He’s kept me from them.  He’s [...]

3 questions

Happiness is in the eye of the beholder, but only if the beholder is truly happy.  No amount of money, sex, possessions or stimulants can truly compare to that of a person who has everything within.  It’s like a ripple effect.
Think about that person on the road yesterday who cut you off.  You in turn, [...]

day afters

I don’t regret this weekend. I probably should. But I don’t have a conscious. Or maybe I just don’t have a big enough heart.
Do I care about the grip? Without question. And he always knew this day was going to come. But when things heated up I didn’t know [...]

November 20th

I’m failing. I’m becoming numb to the rest of oblivion. I’m responsible, yet irresponsible. I’m behind on most everything even if I’m still moving forward. Life at a standstill.
The collection of notebooks scattered across my reality gives but a tiny fraction of a window to where I’ve been. Pieces of me. But never a full [...]

Surprise time out

I don’t care if Monday’s blue
Tuesday’s grey and Wednesday too
Thursday I don’t care about you
It’s Friday, I’m in love
Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart
Oh, Thursday doesn’t even start
It’s Friday I’m in love
Saturday, wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday, never hesitate…
Friday afternoon:
He was running late. The grip and I were supposed to [...]

Touche

Ah men.. capabile of such grand things as the invention of the wheel, and yet some still have the intelligence level of an ameba.  Welcome back to the lessons we learned in middle school ladies.. if you want him, simply let him go.
Openly being masochistic, I decided to pursue this particular douchebag.  He’d told me [...]

Unsaid

Once upon a time, you could read about the multitude of dates that I went on.. the laundry list of a rotation, tons of events, etcetera etcetera.
Things have changed, yet remain the same. Perhaps I’m getting boring with age. Or perhaps I’m just.. tired. Plain tired of the drama involved.
I’m at a [...]

Ah office politics

I work in a male dominated industry which has its perks and its drawbacks.. today the latter becomes more and more evident.
My evening last night wasn’t horrible, but wasn’t outstanding either. I pulled a favor for someone a few months ago, only to get politely snubbed with a smile on her face. I [...]

Just one more reason..

There was an email sent to us at work “Take off 9am-11am and get paid if you are going to vote.”
The issues.. Prop 8, Prop 2, Prop K (I wish I lived in San Francisco to vote on it), and of course the Presidential election.
I remember the words of my dad circa the [...]